For you

I have spent so much time concentrating on other things that I'm pretty sure I've forgotten what's essential. Would you help me remember? It will take some time. You must be patient with me.

Would you remind me

How to give you half of my blanket in bed, because I'm so used to having it all for myself?
How to lay there and listen to you, and what you dreamed of when you were a kid,
How to allow you to make me breakfast in my kitchen, even though you will probably make a mess and it will irritate me that you don't place all the spices in the right places again;
How to let you kiss my neck on a public place without paralyzing?
How to speak of myself without trying to conceal who I truly am?
How not to be afraid of the fact that you like me?
How to give you the last strawberry yoghurt because it's your favorite too,
How to let you see me without make-up, and not be so goddamn intimated by it?
How to count your eyelashes,
How to let you hug me when I've had a rough day,
How to be so anxious to see you again, but not scared shitless that I might not, because you wouldn't let me down like that?
How to let you tell me you've fallen in love, with me, of all creatures on this planet, and it's not ridiculous or stupid, no matter what I say?
How to let you carry the groceries because I don't need to be the superwoman,
How to cry on your shoulder and look all puffed and ridiculous and not care about that,
How to remember that I'm not my failures, or my fears or worries, and that I don't need to be perfect, ever?
How to calm down when I get angry and want to say stupid things, and when I take it all out on you - it's only because I trust you to handle those tantrums?
How to look at your smile and smile back because it's the most wonderful thing on this planet to look at,
How to trust that you're not going anywhere, not anywhere, or maybe to the store to buy some milk but that's it, that's as far as you'll go?
How to love you, and how to be loved in return?

And most of all, would you please remind me, that during all this time, you were arriving as fast as you possibly could, and it took quite a while, it might still take some more - there are all kinds of obstacles on the way - but once you finally get here, you will be here,

Here to stay.